Fear

I realized tongiht, that I am afraid. Afraid that the distance between us will become a space, or a void, like the ones that have formed before. And that this void will swallow our relationship. I'm to tell you that I feel like I belong with you and that I'm not around you I feel out of place. I'm afraid to say these things because I've said similiar things before, and that turned out to be an illusion. I'm afraid to lose again, especially you. I'm afraid to get to close to fast and have you draw back. I'm afraid to scare you. I'm afraid to need you. I'm afraid to crowed, to ask for you. I'm afraid to be yours and you to be mine, because I'm afraid that it means sooner or later I'll lose you. And I'm afraid to tell you this because I don't want to overwhelm you and I don't want you to lie to me to make me feel better. Because all a lie is in a relationship, is a bandage over the truth, which oozes out sooner or later. So if you need to do anything, show me your truth.