In my last blog entry, I described my finicky social needs, which have unsurprisingly lead me to be more susceptible to becoming lonely. I've always been a bit of picky person, and I've known for a long time that people don't like complainers, so my solution was what I want or nothing. Unfortunately for me, this solution doesn't always work and I've been trying to comprise between my needs and wants for some time now.
The thing about needs is that if you deprive yourself of one for too long, your body/mind will make it so that is the only thing you will want. So what do I want? {Insert long, emotional rambling, with jabs at numerous people in your life who've failed yadda yadda...now back to main topic} I want someone to talk to. To be with. Is it wrong to want this when I have friends and a boyfriend? I have plenty of people who want to spend time with me, but I'm tired of them because we never seem to serve my purpose/need and I'm no good when I'm running this low.
In other words, because I'm cognitively starved, I'm less receptive of to the needs of others, I'm less patient, caring, interested and over all less of the good happy person we all enjoy. I hate it when I see the big picture and where the gears need grease but don't have the grease or paint to fix it.
The moral of the story is... I wish I knew, but the thing is I don't. The obvious thing to do would be to change, to be less picky, but that's right next to what makes me me.
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